hallloooweeen

so.. we partied three times before halloween actually came... we had so much fun:)

linds!!
bree!!
i got surrounded by a swarm of bees:)
& got proposed to.. i said yesss!
we saw the milk man..

and mummies...

and a real size lego..

thing 1 & thing 2
and mister bacon:)

we went country dancing in our costumes.. loved it!!

<3> yes, my eyelashes are outrageous.

its hard being a bug..
oh hayyyy!

ms. lady bug & ms. bumble bee
yes.. we had the best halloween of our lives.. & gave out our numbers wayy too many times. oops!! :D

i <3 music

{selena gomez i wont apologize}

For all those girls who have been in a relationship where the guy has cheated on you and tried to change you..

"I was changin', arrangin' my life to fit your lies

It's all said and done

I gave it all for the long run

Goodbye and good luck

I can't be what you want me to be

I'm sorry for changing.

I'm sorry it had to be this way

Believe me, its easier just to pretend.

But I won't apologize for who I am.

Remember the time when you said you were out with your best friend

But it wasn't the best friend that you know I

thought you meant and

I used to accept it, I didn't know I could be free.

But I am and I won't go back cause you don't deserve me

Why should I apologize?

I won't apologize for who I am

No."

-Girls, be proud of who are .. never change for ANYONE.

Someday you will find the guy who won't want to change even a hair on your head.

eeeee!

{my sister is my best friend and the most beautiful girl in the whole universe}

i love to brag about her.

she's such an optimistic person and has a heart of gold

i love that she's my best friend for eternity.

she's so beautiful inside and out.

<3

be jealous i have the best sister ever

i will love her forever & always

<3

**

dear taylor swift,

thank you for coming out with new songs today.

your music has gotten me through some

pretty tough times.

i love how you write your own songs

and play the guitar so well.

you're my motivation.. im asking for a guitar for

christmas and want

to play and sing half as good as you.

thanks to you i have learned to take

your advice and be fearless and jump and fall.

thank you for making me happy.

i woke up..

& to my suprise.. saw snowflakes falling from the sky.
i think im going to enjoy this little thing called snow..
i'm living off hot chocolate and living in blankets.

<3

spooky

pumpkin:)

my friend russell and i carved a pumpkin and im in love with it. we had a fight with the insides of the pumpkin and then cooked the seeds. the apple cider i made was amazing.. i love my mama's reciepes. i'm really excited for halloween this weekend! its supposed to snow this week.. ahh! i think the weather man thinks its december? oh wait... i live in utah.. happy halloween??!

fall

is my favorite..

so.. i'm loving the pretty leaves everywhere and the chilly weather; it gives me an excuse for hot chocolate and apple cider.

i was lucky and got to spend the night at my cousins house. we had so much fun. my aunt amber made my favorite-- pumpkin bread. we played skip bo over and over and went to whiting campgrounds to play in the leaves. i love spending time with my cute cousins.

{i'm feeling better.. except my nasty cough that keeps lingering.. not to worry, my aunt and mom hooked me up with vitamins to last me forever:) ..i feel a job coming my way soooon..my fingers sure are crossed.}

YOUU TAHH...

is so breath taking during the fall..

we went rock climbing at provo canyon, it was beautiful and a blast.

kenzie and i had fun taking random pictures

love that girl.

<3

life

is

good

not to mention i was scared to rock climb.. but i made it to the top and i was..
[fearless]

faith and timing

"the first principle of the gospel is faith in the lord jesus christ. faith means trust- trust in god's will, trust in his way of doing things, and trust in his time table. we should not try to impose our time table. we should not try to impose our time table on him.

the issue for us is trusting god enough to trust also his timing. if we can truly believe he has our welfare at heart, may we not let his plans unfold as he thinks best? since faith in the timing of the lord may be tried, let us learn to say not only, they will be done, but patiently also, thy timing be done. we cannot have true faith in the lord without also having complete trust in his will and his timing."

i started reading a single voice by kristen oaks. i needed this section today.. the lord really is testing my faith.. and i will find a job on his timing. in the mean time i will find ways to serve others, enjoy being with family and staying really frugal. i can do it, i know i can.

well..

{my pretty friend lindsey introduced me to this song and i love it.}

"I spent years and all this time
thinking I was better off cuz you were mine
You always said it was your way or the highway
So I'm shiftin my life into drive
I'm getting out kissing the past good-bye
Like Toby said, 'How do you like me now?'
This conversation has run dry
And I keep telling myself

ooooooo, ooooooo, ooooooo
There's more to me than you
ooooooo, ooooooo
Don't underestimate what I can do
Well I'm alright, it's okay
I know I'll make it through
Cuz there's more to me than you

I'm not saying I'm battered and bruised
but I might as well be with the words you used
I believe in myself, that makes me stronger
Things changed and so have I
I'm gonna make hay while the sun still shines
You can clip my wings, but I'm still gonna fly
I'm on my own and on my way
And I keep telling myself

There was always something that meant more to you than me
And I'm just sorry it's taking this for you to see

There's more to me than you.."

lesson: don't let the pain from past bad relationships carry on too long.. they aren't worth it.

so..

just dance!

its gonna be ok.. we got stuck in traffic so i painted lacey's nails:)

love these girls.
our random new friend with a mask, me on the floor pouting cause i got stepped on and it hurt..our picture with this guy that had "i put the stud into studio" haha and a star with our matching neon polish.

what can we say? we had fun dancing the night away..

{neon halloween dance edition 09}

ok.

blehh.

confession: i've had some hard days lately. .
i'm finally feeling better. being unemployed and sick is the worst.
BUT i enjoy looking at the positive in hard times. i'm used to it and pretty dang goood at it.
i may not have work experience but i have experience in getting through hard times.. too bad there isn't a job for that..

anyway.

utah is so pretty right now. i've really enjoyed driving around and looking at the beautiful mountains and leaves and feeling the cool weather.

well, here are some pictures that i'm liking right now.

The past is behind; learn from it. The future is ahead; prepare for it. The present is here; live it.

p.s why does it still feel like being "miss independent" is the safest??